Cancer may have started the Fight but I will Finish it”.
The Darkside:
• It’s always frightening when cancer comes knocking, but especially so when the door on which it knocks is your home. Sadly, although chemotherapy is extremely effective at destroying any possible remaining cancer cells, it also happens to kill healthy cells in droves too.
• As a matter of fact, many people (especially those with very chemo-resistant, aggressive cancers) are a harmed by the chemotherapy drugs as they are the cancer cells itself! Since the drugs so severely weaken the immune system while at the same time killing off healthy cells, this can threaten the patient’s life just as the disease does. • Chemotherapy is the drug that we hate to love and love to hate. It’s killing us, but at the same time, it’s keeping us alive. Am I right? It was a very painful experience during my time receiving the dose(ABVD) for Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. The kind of pain which I cannot explain, it is like being completely in the Dark Room no light, but you are given a staircase and you have to climb……you can’t see anything …….the only thing which could move me was HOPE, believing there is a light somewhere I just have to find it, I just have to try hard and harder….
• Thinking about dying, yes, I thought of it, I still think about it again well we all going to Die at some point! The only thing is that I have to be prepared and leave behind a legacy.
• I have a 5 year old daughter. She is the reason behind my strength, God knows, the fact that she looks up to me every day makes me feel I am needed in this earth, I am a Mother, I have to work hard to earn for better living, I have to act right and be a role model to my child hence society I live in. I can’t give up! When you know who you are, your stillness threatens the enemy. My family, friends supports me in so many kinds of ways.
• The side effects I faced were; -chills and sweating, flu-like symptoms, Malaise, Mucositis (painful inflammation ulceration of the mucous membranes of the digestive tract), abdominal pains, vomiting, sore throats, toothache, mouth sore and changes in mental state including Chemo brain(brain fog) and at times being impatient / angry. ➢ The Survivorship
• “Be the change you want to see in this world” Mahatma Gandhi once said. Same was to me, is to start the New me, even though diagnosed with cancer, that means i have to live with it in my body, knowing it won’t go away completely it is tough and rough, but again BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE, those words kept on coming back to me. I can either choose to die with cancer or survive with it. After all there is a can in Can-cer because we CAN beat it! Your Desire to change must be greater than your desire to remain the same. It was time to just be happy. Being angry, sad and over thinking is was not worth it anymore, just let things flow and Be POSITIVE.
• I am still standing, I am a SURVIVOR, and I won’t stop surviving.
